Destroy The Past - Move On With The Game?

You know, I have been sitting here contemplating cleaning off a lot of old correspondence and photos from my hard drive. The problem is most of the things come from a single person for whom I have carried significant feelings over a number of years, until recently.

Masturbatory Moods

I was just sitting here, allowing my thoughts to flow where they may. This seems to be a day in which I have no control over the direction they take anyway. Interestingly, I find myself dwelling on thoughts of pornography. Perhaps this is one of those days where I should be following he philosophy of 'when in doubt, rub one out'. Of course, when I take matters in to my own hands, I like to watch a bit of porn appropriate to my masturbatory mood. 

Well, Hell

I am somewhat disappointed in myself today, because I find my thoughts to be more of a jumble than I want or need them to be for a Monday morning. 

Another Sunday Morning

Another Sunday morning, and I am sitting here on the couch watching Bobbie Jones Gospel. Man! These ladies ‘Sweet Honey In The Rock can sing up a storm! They create awesome harmonies. 

I am not sure why I feel so at peace this morning, but the feeling is so notable, I could not help but write it down and recognize it as a moment that is worthy of comment.

Unable & Unwilling To Be Your Enabler

What a multiplicity of mental images I am experiencing this morning. Lo’ though I might wish it were otherwise, I am unable to jump off the hamster wheel and look at one thought at a time. These are the days when I have to just sit down and start typing, and see where it leads.

Feels Like Sunday

I woke up this morning to the thrill of having yesterdays desire fulfilled. I can think of nothing better before I bounce out of the bed than the feeling I get when I feel hard cock sinking slowly pushing its way deep inside of me. Laying on my side, ass pushed back, making my back look like a reverse 'C', making sure my clit feels the friction as that dick slips in and out. THAT is the right way to start any day. 

Misty Morning Dew - I Mean Do Me

I woke up this morning and my first thought was – that I fully recall – I want some dick. I am not talking about dick with a whole lot of preamble.

Mae West Knows Best ;)

Sex with love is the greatest thing in life. 
But sex without love - that's not so bad either.~ Mae West

Travel Time for This Tramp!

Finally! I shall be taking my trip across the country to visit folks on the other side of the U S of A, which I originally planned back in September. My activities are going to be a bit different than I had planned, but as life evolves one adjust and adapts to what is relevant in their life now, as opposed to what was good then. 

Released

Over the last few days, I had to take a break from writing because my mind was consumed with thoughts of someone whom I had to focus on letting go. 

There are people who come in to your life and seem to be a person who add so  much to your daily life. That is what I thought of this person for years. After stepping back and looking at what they add or offer me, in return for all they asked of me, I realized that they are intrinsically selfish and manipulative. They offer everything, in words, but do nothing in action. While I am grateful to them for some of the inhibitions and fears they helped me to overcome in the past four years, I find that my resentment for their failures to step up and over the bar, to be equally yoked within our relationship outweighs all other positive feelings I have had over the past 4 years.

So, after allowing myself a few days of mourning for the loss of a dream, I have returned to my blog.

Away we go….

Real Girlfriends - I Miss Having Them Near

Something I miss having in my life these days is that circle of REAL friends – actually REAL girlfriends.

A Return To Un-Deluded & Undiluted Writing

Beyond the lies I told myself, this past year has seen me at a loss for words when it came to writing fiction or erotica.

What Are My Plans For 2011?

Oh So Close! Gimme A Hand?

Here's What's Important To Me

Hazard Warning! I Have Been thinking Again

Thinking can sometimes be hazardous for me, as many times, against all of my emotional attempts to deny the truth, my logical mind makes itself heard when I switch to thinking mode. In this particular situation which I have been actively working from an emotional place, my thinking moment today let logic come in and present some scenarios which - based on recent experience - are much more likely to be representative of the truth of the matter. 

Some More Monday!

Wow. I can not be unhappy with this mornings events. I have received a telephone call requesting that I meet with someone whom I have previously worked with, though only briefly. They are looking for someone to fill the executive assistant role in their organization which just so happens to be my area of expertise. I am more than happy to be called to be interviewed for this slot. 

Monday - Monday

Today is the official beginning of a new year of seeking employment. So far this week I only have one interview scheduled, but I am hoping to hear from another person whom I also did a telephone interview with last week about an opportunity in Oakland. 

Watching Football in a Skirt and High Heels

Today I am just in a mood to enjoy my feminine side. It doesn't need exploring; I found it a long time ago. 

Released Me - I Am Letting Loose

There is something going on inside me. I am finding a sense of liberation welling up within me. The more I allow myself to write what I want to say, rather than worry about what someone else may read, the better and freer I feel. It's not something I set out to achieve; I had no particular goal when I began to write this particular blog beyond writing my thoughts, ideas, or feelings on whatever struck me at the moment I began writing. Well, now that the liberation has begun, I sure as hell have no intention of reigning it back in.

Orgasmic Optomist

What's on my mind this morning? In all honesty, I have to confess to being consumed with the thought of sex - heated, wet, sweaty, talk nasty (not dirty) to me, I just got fucked sex. I want my first fuck of 2011 to kick off the year in the manner in which I prefer to go on.

And So We Begin

I woke up this morning and the rain was falling outside my window. I could hear it hitting the leaves of the trees and landing in the ivy between my building and the one next to me. I just lay there listening and letting my thoughts roam where they may.