Thursday Morning Thoughts

I woke up this morning to the sound of the wind blowing and rain slamming against the windows. Magnificent! I don't know why I get so pumped up and turned on by the wind and the rain, but it always brings with it the desire to indulge in  lascivious acts with a dark-skinned, athletically muscled, free with his inner freak man.

If the truth be told, I need him to be free with his inner freak, because I want a guide to help me release mine. I know that the thoughts that occur to me when I am waking, are acts I want to commit upon the beautiful body of a chocolate-skinned man, and I know I need to have him open, willing, and wanting for my own inner freak to feel secure enough to be let loose.
It is a somewhat sad state of affairs for me that I have no man for whom I feel sufficient passion for or attraction to, nor secure enough with, to let my inner me reign supreme. I did have someone with whom I let go of all of my inhibitions, but when I began to feel as if he were only interested in cyber-sex, and not the actual physical contact, I lost interest, with a thudding sound that could be heard on the east coast. Cyber sex ain't NOTHING to me, beyond an appetizer, or a means to keep gas in my tank when we have to be apart. If there is no lips forthcoming for my labia, or no dick-head sliding across my clit,  on the way to slipping sexily inside of me, melting me, making my pussy juices his own personal man-meat moisturizer, there is a dildo with my name on it. Fuck you, if I can't fuck you, basically.