Surprising Myself

I have held back a million words over the past year, and I am surprising myself with the amount of writing which is wanting to work it's way out of my head and on to paper, even the electronic version of paper. 



I have decided that I will let the words come as they wish - when they wish - and perhaps I will learn something about myself, which I did not know, or perhaps I will remember something about myself which I have forgotten. 
I have missed feeling connected with myself, until just this past couple of months. I hated the feelings of being adrift and alone that plagued me at the beginning of the year, but right now today, I am loving the feeling of increased confidence which has begun growing within me over this past month. 
I learned something important about myself in this last month of the year; or perhaps I re-learned something about myself. I learned and shall once and for always remember, I am not what others think or claim me to be. I  have also learned to call bullshit when I see or smell it, especially that from other people who imply there is something wrong with me, when they should in fact and in stead be admitting their own issues and begin working on their own shortcomings caused by their inabilities to unpack luggage and dirty laundry which have nothing to do with me.