An End -Now Let's Begin

Today is the last day of the year 2010. I can't say that this year has been the best, but I am certain it has not been the worst. 


This year started off so very difficult for me - I was experiencing some very painful times emotionally, and I am quite pleased that during the course of this year I found myself, and my inner strength, and overcame the ennui that held me tightly in its' grip when 2010 began. 
This year I have lost two friends to breast cancer. Both of them leave behind children, friends, and family who will miss them dearly for the rest of our days. 
This year I have reconnected with a friend whose loss contributed to my depression when this year began. I am glad that we are communicating again. I have always enjoyed our intimate exchanges and sharing our thoughts. 
This year was not nearly as fruitful as I would have had it with regards to the employment front, but with God's grace, I have been able to sustain myself and maintain a roof over my head. As long as I keep putting in the efforts, I know this extended period of financial testing will come to an end. Try as I might, I was unable to avoid feelings of embarrassment about my continued unemployment and the unchanging - or more aptly - the unimproved vista of my life. Budgetary concerns contributed to my inability to maintain a social presence, and the lack of social interactions, on a personal level, have left my list of real friends extremely light. 
This year has been good for me as far as my physical self. The events of 2009 were extremely enervating for me physically, and with the depression issues that carried over into 2010, the year could have ended in a totally different way. Instead of staying entrenched in the mire of my depression, I fought and won the battle against the couch potato ass and the belly bulge. I started off walking, just walking anywhere - and I ended the year with Zumba. I have not been as diligent as I should, but that is on the list of changes for 2011. The results for the efforts which I have expended are sufficient to keep me motivated to do more. 
Well, this is all I am going to write for now. The day is young - even if I am not.


~ LJB